I worked out that some of the reason I’ve been unhappy of recent was because I had become stuck in a routine.
I would wake up, go to work, get home, eat, watch tv and then go to sleep. It’s funny that I fell into that trap because I do, given the opportunity, try anything and feel that I am a spontaneous individual, unfortunately working in a corporate company doing 40 hours a week has taken it’s toll on me.
This week has been different, I have LIVED outside this soul destroying job and I feel better for it. Not only do I have a better mindset but creativity speaking I’ve been far more productive and it feels good!
One of the things I changed about this week was I arrange to meet up with a fellow creative and friend to do design stuff and if all goes to plan we’ll do this one evening every week! One idea we had was that we would meet at a different place every week, again, based on my own personal interest in the powers of Serendipity and how it encourages creativity.
FUCK ROUTINE, BE HAPPY!
Wednesday is my least favourite day of the week but todays outcome is only a 1 reason why, but we wont go there, not today at least.
I could easily be distract like a large percentage of the population and have a little rant about Donald Trump, sorry, President Donald Trump, but I’m not, I’m going to focus on my own problems.
This post is dedicated to my first professional job since graduating in July. I work at a corporate print factory in Pontyclyn, which is on the outskirt of Cardiff, as a graphic design in-house. Thats doesn’t sound too bad right….false, the company I work for has a contract with Just Eat and produces the menu’s for all the takeaway restaurants in the UK that uses Just Eat. Despite this the job has it’s pros, I’m just not sure they outweigh the cons.
- I’m a graphic designer, of sorts 😂
- I’ve gone straight from university into a job 💪
- It’s not only a graphic design job but being in a print factory I’m learning a lot about that too.
- I’m on 40hw and my probation period ends in two months so more £££.
- I use Adobe photoshops/indesign/illustrator every day.
- The experience looks good on my CV.
- I design take away menu’s…enough said?
- 90% of the time I’m not designing menus but amending old one, so changing items, prices, pictures…so not very creative.
- Some of the time I have to use this program called Quark 😡 which is an alternative to Indesign, a shit alternative.
- I work for a corporate company and I don’t particularly like what they do.
- I get paid my cheque…..yes it matters
- I don’t feel as creative or confident as I did when I left uni
- I’m unhappy and comfortable
It’s fair to say I’m in a pickle! I want to quit because I am unhappy but I feel like I need to grind it out at least until my probation period. I think if I do see it out for a few more month I should get the most out of it, learn everything I can and more, but I feel motivated in any way.
The question is…what would I alternatively do? go back to working in Tesco? as if 8 years wasn’t enough! Go home and move back in with my parents? Would that be giving up? I guess that is what I’m trying to work out!
Whether or not this is the case, I feel as if life has got one over already since graduating in July. Yes I’m living in Cardiff as intend instead of going back home, and yes I’ve secured a 40 hours a week job that is sort of relevant to my degree working at a corporate print company as a graphic design, but I’m currently in a state of panic and feel lost because I don’t know where I’m going in life. Part of me is saying “you’re fine, you’re living in the capital city, you have a job and your friends all live around Cardiff” but the other voice in my head is saying “I’m doing a job I don’t enjoy, a job I’m frankly not very good at because of my learning disability, where I spend 40hrs a week sat at a computer and worst of all the work I’m producing is against everything I believe in!” so what do I do?
I used this blog a hell of a lot in uni to reflect on projects because my head was always so busy with thought, so I think writing this post to reflect on my current position in life will help, because in my head I am panicking a little a little
Starting from now, yes right now, I’m going to work out what the hell I’m going to do with my life!
Peace out ✌️