Well, not quite a year from graduating but a year from our final submission and degree show, which I can’t get my head around.
Following uni my only real aspirations where to stay in Cardiff and not go back to my small town in S-W Wales to live at home, which I’ve done, although I do miss my dogs and being able to play golf weekends. On a plus note to staying in this amazing city I got a job relevant to my degree, unfortunately as I started a week after graduating I lost my summer, the first summer since starting uni 4 years ago where I could of just had a few months out to relax….but there you go, life does wait around.
11 month in a professional environment has been…tough, tiring and unrewarding…maybe I’m being a little pessimistic here, I have worked on some interesting projects, learn’t loads and meet interesting and lovely people. Things didn’t start off great, I found adjusting to the long week hours, especially in winter when the days where short, the pace of the commercial environment, not to mention at the time managing a long distance relationship, all very difficult. Unfortunately 3 months had pasted and the long distance relationship ended, like most do, and to top things off getting an informal disciplinary, at this point thought’s of quitting where creeping in and becoming a certainty, but I stepped up a gear and reached my 6 month probation in good spirit, receive good feedback and being offered a permanent position.
Almost one year on and I haven’t really thought about what is next. I am worried that not having any aspirations has starting making life seem rather stale and repetitive, so it’s got me thinking…….where do I want to be next year?
Aside from a couple of tutorial in uni and in my spare time I didn’t really know my way around Indesign before getting this job…a job in creating publications, but after hearing the term “Fake it, until you
make become it” I blagged the job and now I’m great on Indesign and QUARK EXPRESS(awful indesign alternative). I’ve learn’t loads of other stuff too, Being a print company I now understand a great deal about print, dealing with customers both pleasant and difficult, handling high passed work, etc…
However, I have no intention of staying at this job much longer after I get the year experience. The pay isn’t great, a job in Cardiff would be more convenient and it’s just too much on commercial side of things, I need something more creative that isn’t driven by profit, screw the man!
I need a plan, I need something to work towards.
Sort out my portfolio
Consider Travelling? Still so much of the world I need to see, while I still can.
Be productive, Work on my design skills, watch tutorials, find interesting Ted Talks, be creative.
One year on and still smiling, Drew > Life
Whether or not this is the case, I feel as if life has got one over already since graduating in July. Yes I’m living in Cardiff as intend instead of going back home, and yes I’ve secured a 40 hours a week job that is sort of relevant to my degree working at a corporate print company as a graphic design, but I’m currently in a state of panic and feel lost because I don’t know where I’m going in life. Part of me is saying “you’re fine, you’re living in the capital city, you have a job and your friends all live around Cardiff” but the other voice in my head is saying “I’m doing a job I don’t enjoy, a job I’m frankly not very good at because of my learning disability, where I spend 40hrs a week sat at a computer and worst of all the work I’m producing is against everything I believe in!” so what do I do?
I used this blog a hell of a lot in uni to reflect on projects because my head was always so busy with thought, so I think writing this post to reflect on my current position in life will help, because in my head I am panicking a little a little
Starting from now, yes right now, I’m going to work out what the hell I’m going to do with my life!
Peace out ✌️